Friday, September 2, 2011

Time or Taint///The Temple

I think that it's both. What happened to me, when Running Bear and I first entered the temple to investigate.  You see, I have always been extra sensitive to things of the spirit nature. I expected to feel the passing of time around the temple, due to its nature. So, I must have accidentally opened myself up more to feel it. In other words, I unexpectedly made myself vulnerable.
When the sacredness of this place was violated, the only explanation that makes sense to me is that the blackness somehow combined with the naturally strong flow of time. It behaved much like two reacting chemicals. The violation and the taint reacted with the natural world to created a perversion. That I got sucked into. Running Bear said he didn't notice it much, which only furthers my theory. 

You'll have to forgive me, I am not much of a scientist. I look into what I find interesting. Which reminds me, I haven't yet looked at those papers. I am almost afraid to look. I can almost tell you what is there. The Faceless Figure. That curious symbol. But what if there is more? Where is the connection? That old grandmother warned me that research would be the death of me. I begin to wonder if she might actually be right.

Also, the temple...It's going on an indefinite temporary hold. I just..I can't go back in there. I can't. Cleaning the underground chamber...It scared me. It terrified me, actually. I lit some of the clover on fire and dropped it in there, but I doubt it did much if any good. Especially if this taint permeated into other realms, like I am almost certain it has. I struggle though..Do I owe the builders of this place more? Should I try harder? But no...I can't. Not now. I'll come back, someday. When I know more.

At least that's what I keep telling myself.

Running Bear's secret addition here: She's packing up and leaving in the morning. If I stay here much longer I'll lose it. I hope she will take me with her. If you believe in anything, whatever it is, ask your gods on my behalf. Please.

1 comment:

  1. It's too bad you couldn't clear the temple. I really did hope you'd succeed, but it's probably safer for you to go. Maybe you'll meet an elder willing to pick up the burden? At least I hope you'll warn someone nearby so that no one unwittingly goes in there while it's still tainted.

    The only thing I can think of that might help is for stones that absorb negativity to be left in the temple (Hematite, rose quartz, picture stone, turquoise) and periodically changed out for new ones, the old ones being thrown in running water. But that would be extremely time consuming, which is why it might be best if you can find an elder willing to watch over the place and clean it in your stead.